Have you ever sat back and truly thought about that life you live and how you have managed to get to exactly the place you are now?
... I have... Yikes
Some days it feels like I have lived three lifetimes in just a span of 28 years of my life. Being surrounded by a constant feeling to try to live up to everyone's expectations of me is just tiring and overbearing.. and quite frankly... it fucking sucks!! In trying to live up to what everyone else thought I should do.. I ended up losing out on some of the most important years of my life! When I was a teenager I just became fed up with life and I decided I am no longer going to have expectations or respect any authority! Boy was that a shitty mistake!
However.... The life I lived was pretty exciting and fun.. From lavish vacations where nothing but top shelf everything was allowed, to slummin' it at that local dive bars and street corners, to never knowing where my next dollar would come from, to having way to much on me and spending rigorously! My life was one epic blend of really highs to really really lows! I fell in love, I got crushed! No need to dwell on that just yet.... but that situation has had a role in shaping exactly who I am today...
But.... just who exactly am I? ......
I have no fucking clue who I am! I turned around and almost everyone I knew has gotten married and had some kids.. even own their own companies! Where am I exactly? Just starting fresh it seems. Where did the time go? Why do I not have anything done that I said I would have done? Seems as is life was just passing me on by and I was too busy in a drunken party haze to really take a good look at things. Honestly, it's hard starting from this point. You don't want people to take pity on you and you just want to be looked at as equal.. but you're not. I am technically seeing everything for the first time in the harsh light of day. I have to say.. I'm so ready to take this on. I have to be. I wasted so many years just watching everything pass me by. I had zero appreciation for what was right in front of me. I just wanted to escape. That is NOT how life should be. This past year I have finally started putting the pedal to the metal shall we say. I am finally doing things for me!
One of the many things I am doing for me is this blog. I have always enjoyed writing. I may not be a best selling author of any kind by any means, however, I really enjoy expressing myself with writing. In this blog I have to tell you that I have no idea what I am going to write about..I have, however, always had a fascination with pop culture.. I am always involved in some form or another. I do have a soft spot for the "Real Housewives" franchise and I will definitely be giving my views on each city and on each wife as the show airs. Besides being an entertainment lover of all kinds.. I am extremely interested in travel, dining, fashion and my new favorite, weight loss. I know I know.. All of these things have been written about before. However I don't think I will be limiting myself to what I can and will write about. I may bounce from topic to topic and it can be a whirlwind but that's just me. I feel that when one limits themselves, everything tends to be robotic. I hate robotic. So sit back and enjoy if you want... I'm sure many of you will have a difference in opinion than I and believe me I welcome all opinions. Just try not to be too disgusting when judging people or topics. You can have a difference in opinion without being a total douchebag. If for any reason you decide you hate the hell out of me and couldn't give two shits about what I have to say.. Lucky you... There's a back button! ;)
If you have continued to read so far and decided that you want to stick around.. Thanks.. I promise I will try my best not to disappoint!
